<body> You Were My Everything - Aviation



Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas people!
goash, my parents are out of the country again,
this time with me lucky and my sis,
means gonna wipe shyt again FUCK
anyway
met dex and bear yesteday at 7 and head down to
old spot " CONSPIRACY "
ok it's damn pack when we first reach,
it get worst as the nite pass,
so we settled down get 1 and 1/2 bottle of Chivas for the nite
chat alot, a few waitress sat with us, heng ar
LOLS
then we got ourselves spray and it's PARTY TIME
got really wet and sticky goash,
alot r21 things happened!
just kidding
o yea, all the messages just got STUCK!
cant even send out...
maybe they shoot fire a few more satellite =]
and soon after, people got drunk, some too crazy,
and ppl got intimidated by others,
thus creating a chaos situation lol
after the show, we got back to our place, just to see strangers sitting on our tables -_-
wtf, then NAna settled it for us, and then some fights happened again ....
luckly we are not involve,
meanwhile we felt the unsecureness and settle our bills, get our asses out ..
hop into the cab, off to the high way
and we realise smt.....
NB, forget take our stuff..
cb then the uncle gonna change shift cant send us back, wen paid 14 dollar, then we took another cab back,
reach conspiricy rush up, get our things ,rush down again, to see dex MERLIONING
LOLs and bear cannot take it liao, so they both went back up to vomite LMAO..
DEXTER CAN really dRINK =]
hahas, and the cab fee back to woodland is 40 BUCK !!! cb,
get some food and then back to my hse, can see bear still abit not himself.
wen sat and played dota, while i just sleep my way thru,
when i wake up
wen and bear left , so are my parents,
and now home not alone but with a dog and hungry stomach =(

i <3 you so-

Saturday, December 20, 2008

ok,
got to get over
yea, seriously
your name still appear
everywhere i go
ppl kept reminding me,
they did't do it on purpose,
but, everytime
it just rack everything up,
just like a tattoo,
tattooed to the back of my head.



-random

i <3 you so-



WOW
A BIG BIG WOW
Suddenly felt tat i got a very understanding dad,
just got back from ivan's place,
decided to go play pool
then i bring out all my courage
go tell my parents
sae IVAN PAPA BRINGING US TO PLAY POOL
LOLS
then, have u every had ur parents caught your bluff??
LOLS immediately they sae, if it's ivain father then , it's okay
BUT never ever heard abt his father from u before, HAHAS
then i change my sentence to HIS father driving us there,
LOLS
then i tot, jialat liao, cmf cannot
then my father sae, go my wallet take,
MUHAHA means okay liao can go,
LOLS
then i walk to the wallet i open, i see 1 STACK OF 50 dollar i think 3k ?
then i take 1 10 dollar, he sae, u wan take any one also can, LOLS
then i take 1 more 10,
but think again, he sae anyone
then i put in the 20 dollar, TAKE OUT 50 MUHAHAS
ok tats it
suddenly feel he damn good, now waiting for ivan to contact his father.

i <3 you so-

Thursday, December 11, 2008

ok been very long since i last post,
bo pian, this whole week exam
knn, anyway
have been studying cum playing and then studying
like cow like tat, have been really close with yvain and joshua
thx men
u guys understand most.
yvain = moral supporter
joshua = MONEY SUPPORTER

is it just me or u look like gorilla with clothes on?


Nvm that just randoms.
just why are there so much rumors/ gossip?
so wad if there are so many rumors/gossip?
tell me tat you do not gossip/rumors.
so wads the point yea?
you all should know
i dun sae anything doesn't mean i dun care
i'm just observing, carefully trying to avoid as much unnecessary conflicts
as i can.
judge yourself first before u fucking point your fingers at others.
every one wear a mask, play their roles recite their script
just who is the director directing the show,
we shall see.


someone told me he saw you,
the person you was with wasn't me
the tot of that just shatters my heart
your name just keep haunting my heart
everynight it's so difficult tat i have to drink my self to sleep
i really want to throw away this 1year of nightmare
u change u really change
or perhaps
it's not u change
just tat i didt notice the real you
how foolish i am
induldge myself into you
the i realise how hard it is
to wash away those hurting memories u left me with
it became harder when i knew tat u hide it from me
if theres a way, anyway
just help me remove that fucking memory
i must sae i really enjoyed thoes days with u around,
but now seeing u enjoying with anther guy
HOW THE FUCK YOU WANT ME TO CHEER THE MOTHER FUCKING UP?

i <3 you so-

Friday, December 5, 2008

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy



-For you know who

i <3 you so-

Thursday, December 4, 2008

If you're flirting behind my back, isn't it only impartial for me to flirt too? If you're devoted, i'll be twice the devotee. If you're doing something awful behind my back, do you still expect me to linger around you acting as if nothing happens?
It's beyond my tolerant level. No point mending things u , it really won't help anymore. i'm sorry.
-yvain

yea he said tat, poor vain, sorry i was't there, did't get your picture...
yea now i understand ABIT..
look at the bright sight > you have got me too...


anyway
i passed my BTT. yea soon CAR
daddy sae buying me suzuki swift, and he gonna pay for patrol to let me drive to school everyday
SONG BO!!!
so faster apply and book your name with me , if u wan me to car pool you,
5 day 20 dollar per pax
MUHAHAa

i <3 you so-

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

When i finished my studies
When i finished my job
When everything silenced
It became a pitch dark

When i look into
the mirrors of my inner-self
Question after Question was born

So feeling the uncountable
Question I could relate to
Everything that I've done

This is a retake of my life
seeking for meaning and purpose
And why wan i born

Two billion of my siblings died
for me to be born
I must treasure whatever
i have and had

It is still question
for purpose to
this show.



Mr Benny say my poem is BRILLIANT.
only stupid ppl dun understand
so if u dun understand
dun ask
cuz it will make stupid
MORE.









so whatever, no matter how hard i try how hard i tell myself
NO matter how many time u guys have push me,
NO MATTER how many time i have heard "let it go"
no matter how
i still cant it go
cant face it
cant handle it
cant run from it
cant hide it
cant
i just cant
WTFFFFFFFFFffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff
i seriously nid
i dunno even noe. haiz

i <3 you so-

Cleon
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